Okay, well the plan at this point is there is NO plan. The greatest gift I received when picking up the campervan from escapecampervans.com was when Rob says, “Ajay to be really honest, we don’t care so much about Oprah or even where you go, we just want to reach more aussies and let them know that we are here in the USA and what we offer so I guess, for us, just have fun and enjoy yourself.” WOW. There I was stressing about making sure I did enough interesting things to satisfy my one and only sponsor when they have just given me free rein to just go wherever the wind blows.

So apart from going down to check out the LA auditions there is no longer any strict plan. I have 2 priorities:
1. Make sure Kai has a good time
2. Get on Oprah (whether it be this particular reality show, her network or whatever and however long it takes me)
3. …..okay I know I said two but there’s really three now – find stories that inspire others to find their own Mojo…..I’m sorry but I really love the idea that I could amass a whole series of ideas, concepts, interviews etc that would eventually help myself and whoever else needs it to keep going on the days they don’t want to.

So to go to Atlanta or not? This is the question and one I guess I won’t answer till I am there…cause even I don’t know. All I know for now is we are going down to Orange County to check out the auditions and I am going to film some of it and talk to some people about Oprah and I may or may not just put my OWN audition down now so I can do more Finding My MOjo than Chasing oprah per se. Don’t get me wrong…Chasing Oprah does not stop until she is caught but last night I questioned truly deeply why I am doing this? Why am I chasing OPrah? And the answer to that is it is not so much the physical embodiment of Oprah but what she stands for. She is incredibly human with a frailty she is not afraid to share. She is generous to a fault and is justifiably proud of her achievements. She aims to inspire, educate and motivate everyone she reaches and she is not afraid to take risks or believe in her vision to do so. She works hard, lives well, makes mistakes and moves onward and upward no matter what life throws at her. That is what I am chasing. I want to be all or even just some of that. That is what I am chasing. I want to become a part of that - whether it is on her network or someone else’s but how she lives and works is an inspiration and a motivation to me - that is what I am chasing - not her specifically but what one preson can achieve if they think BIG!

So…. knowing I am going to film and possibly “be seen” down at the auditions….I had my darling friend Christian Scott (another aussie making a go of things in LA) come over and do me up. My friend Vi reckons I should audition and be done with it and even though I am still keen to walk in the door at Atlanta there is a teensy wensy part of me that feels she is right. Sometimes you have to go where the energy flows and stop when you hit a road block and losing my big sponsor last minute has made 5000 miles of gas money a little hard to find. I always ask where I am meant to go and often find I am guided to the right place…sooner or later…..

I am a firm believer in intuition and there IS a little part of me saying to do this and then just get on the road and see what happens. Have to say I certainly couldn’t make myself look this good…makes me realise I’m not as far away from putting myself back together again as I thought…I once heard a doctor on The Swan say, there are no ugly women just poor women. Haha. Sad, but kinda true. I think of certain people I have worked with and how their face has changed each year with the more money they earned…….before and after completely different…same on the inside tho (lol)…there are some things money just can’t buy! Speaking of which, my poor face was looking like a pizza until I just went without other stuff to buy my dermalogica…then in weeks it cleared up…seriously I had a volcanic face for four months …it was worse than when I was a teen.

Anyway I do know that when I get back from this trip and when I start training again, now my back is looking like it is actually healed (chorus of angels sing), I know it won’t take long for me to be firing on all cylinders again…and once those endorphins kick in and once I have more energy there will be nothing stopping me from going full steam ahead – Mojo found and outta control.

So, Kai and I have packed the van if you want to use the word “packed”…I prefer to use chaotic proportioning..or maybe even a completely made up word like “Blagfelch”…basically it means we threw a whole heap of stuff we probably don’t need and won’t use into the back part of the van and quickly closed the door before it fell out on top of us. Welcome to the Rochester chaos theory.

I have been trying for days/weeks to upload my video to the Oprah site but have been having issues….the first being my complete and utter techno-incompetence. My darling friend Harlan has been editing me a version (after so many hiccups it was just not funny…dvds lost, dvds forgotten, dvds not copied ot american format, wrong ones copied, right ones copied but sound of of synch….etc etc) Hopefully just before I go tonight I can upload it….
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Hmmmm okay, it’s now ten pm and my internet is playing up so I will do it when we get somewhere with better wifi than mine…right now I need to get to Orange County before it is too late at night and park somewhere close to the auditions so Kaizie and I have a base camp. I have to say I am mildly excited and buoyed by the freedom given me by Escape and I am really seriously thinking about just putting my thing on tape, auditioning with everyone all the other L Aliens and moving forward with Finding My Mojo.

Will see……………….