Christmas 2001

I have to say that yesterday I had a GREEEAATTT day. Nothing really spectacular but I did meet someone who made a huge difference to my day. Sometimes it really is the tiniest investment in our selves that can light a huge fire which actually brings me to my “Love Yourself List”. This is something that I write about in my next book but I will cover it briefly here. Basically when you have taken a few hits you let yourself go and end up in a bit of a downward spiral that then keeps dragging you down a bit like a slinky going down some stairs. What you have to do is coax yourself back with baby steps and act like you love yourself until you do once again. So I have the Love Yourself List. Basically I create a list of things I promise and try to do everyday and for those who are on top of the world you might scoff at it but trust me – I KNOW what it is like to be in a funk and sometimes you do need to make it as simple as creating a list to make sure you do the barest essentials to not even have THE BEST day but to have a better day than the last.

So this is my simple start up list which as I feel better and better I tweak and put more and more on it.

My current Finding My Mojo Love Yourself List:
Shower
Brush teeth
Do hair
Pluck eyebrows and any other hair that is where it really shouldn’t be (more on that shortly)
Moisturise everything (face, body, feet, and scars)
Put a little bit of make up on even when just popping up the street (particularly in this town, you never know who you are going to meet)
Make Bed.
WALK!
Do hypnosis CD (I love Paul McKenna’s Change your life in 7 days)
File nails
Drink water.
Pick a flower and put it beside my bed
Laugh
Spend FUN time with Kai and not just study/work.
Remind myself of the good things in my life.

Anyway that’s it and I am very excited about waking up one day soon saying Frabjous day, calloo callay I have officially found my Mojo!

Now let me explain about that special person I met yesterday that made me day that little bit better.

Seven months ago I was a passenger in a car that was side-swiped. I remember it happening just like slo mo’ing your favorite part in a film. I saw the car coming straight for my door and remember thinking , “we’re not going to make it, please make it stop, it’s going too fast, please please don’t let this happen, this is NOT going to hurt, this IS going to hurt, sh*t, why didn’t I renew my travel insurance yesterday…………………….ahhhhhh, noooooooo” Then I don’t remember anything for a few minutes. BLANK. Then it was like standing outside my body, no, I wasn’t dead, but I was trying to tell my self, the self that was actually REALLY in pain, that pain was in the mind and that if I could just use the power of MY mind over it then this would not actually be happening.

Then it occurred to me I was still in the car, in shock and that the two drivers involved were outside the car arguing over whose fault it was and neither had checked to see if I was ok. Weird. Then I got scared cause I was in pain. Big time pain. And my elbow was huge and black already and my whole body was hurting so I didn’t know what body part was worse and I was feeling things to see if they were broken and I couldn’t open my door and I was still thinking and praying that I could just wish it away, you know, suck it up, take a half a cup of cement and harden up or just press REWIND.

Anyway seven months later and OVER the pain I finally agreed to have an extremely risky procedure on my back because quite simply the pain was debilitating. Couldn’t work out and when I did it put me back in bed for a week. My whole system just melted down and since beating obesity, such a big part of who I am has been about working out in some way every day, and to be honest I really haven’t coped very well. I am just not the same person if I can’t go for a run or play a game of soccer. I truly did change the way I was on so many levels (not just the food) and not being able to be THAT sporty girl who kept me on track really affected me. I don’t know how to do a life where I’m not “going hard” in the gym or training for a tri or having a game with the girls, I no longer knew how to live without those awesome incredibly addictive exercise endorphins…I was an addict without my crack and you know what? I didn’t like it. I do NOT know how I managed to get as big as I did (around 300 pounds at my heaviest) cause whilst I’m probably carrying about 20-30 pounds of excess it feels like 150 pounds. It just doesn’t fit with who I have become post obesity.

Anyway, the treatment was terrifying, and as a single mom having to sign forms that said whether or not they will resuscitate me was horrifying and even worse a form I had to sign that if I had a stroke and ended up on life support who would make the decision to turn it off….oh my god who do you get to decide that for you? I left it blank. I cannot tell you how scared I was. Anyway it’s a week tomorrow and I am three days pain relief FREE for the first time in 7 months and best of all there is barely any pain. OMG! Now the key for me is to start slowly: so not like me, but I do NOT want to jeopardise this so I will do as I am told (also unlike me).

Anyway when I put the call out for Finding My Mojo, this amazing woman called JJ Flizanes contacted me and offered to help me in my recovery, getting me back to my fighting weight just in time for the launch of my next book and Australian book tour late August and more importantly helping me, and whoever else is checking in here, Find my Mojo.

Who is this mystery woman? JJ is the Director of Invisible Fitness and Author of Knack Absolute Abs: Routines for a Fit and Firm Core. She was chosen as Best Personal Trainer in Los Angeles for 2007 by Elite Traveler Magazine and is a finalist for IDEA Personal Trainer of the Year 2010. She is the co creator of the 6 Week Beach Body Program and the creator of the 90 Day Health and Body Makeover Program. JJ’s mission is to help men and women feel gorgeous and confident in a bathing suit without starving themselves or overworking in the gym. JJ also used to train Caroline Rea (former host of Biggest Loser USA) so she knows how to train real people versus Hollywood stick insects who live off fresh air and cocaine. Sounds like a perfect fit for me. Check her out at 6weekbeachbody.com and you can even get some free stuff from her and we ALL love that!

And so, she is a very integral part of my MOJO team putting me back together. Going on the road she is going to set me up to just have the healthiest trip possible (ahhhhh yeah…about that…..) and then when I get back from the road trip bit I will then do a seven week body blitz that will apparently have a beach body – something I really have never ever fully achieved. I always get close and then something happens or my legs have never quite got there so it will be interesting to see if what she has is the little puzzle piece I have been missing all these years.

Anyway so if you wanna do it with me, I am starting on the actual program July 8th, the day after I return the campervan so get prepared and maybe you can do it with me. It always helps to have a training buddy and maybe we can ALL find our Mojo at the very same time. I will be keeping most of my training blogs at http://www.myhealthybodyclub.com but you and your friends can join now and get a FREE 3 month membership so you too can blog your own progress and read all about mine.

Go to http://www.healthybodyclub.com.au/gethealthy and type in the promo code: gethealthy. And make sure you send me a message here telling me you are doing it with me so I know who to shout out to.

Anyway today I am putting more of the trip together, chasing down people I can and hope to interview and chasing sponsors who wanna help make this happen so if you know anyone or have any suggestions then once again send me a message to me@chasingoprah.com or leave me a message right here.

Have a greeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaat Mojo enhancing day.

X Ajay